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For those of you that don’t know who I am, haven’t had the opportunity to get to know me, or simply have a lot of questions, hi. My name is Tiana.

I’m a 23-year-old college graduate who recently quit her full-time corporate job to run full-force in the direction of her dreams. I’m young. I’m hungry. But most importantly, I’m pretty broke.

I dread talking about careers, because when I get asked what it is that I do, I never really have a sound answer. Sure, I’m part blogger, part content creator. I do a bit of social media management, and dabble in the realm of graphic design. But all bets are off when I have to give myself an actual “grown-up” title.

And I know what some (okay, most) of you are thinking. “This girl is insane!” No job security, no 401K, no real direction. And most days, I’m right there with you. Self-doubt and worry are constantly knocking at my door, repeating over and over the question that everyone (including myself) wants answered: can she do it? 

My path is unknown and it looks differently than everyone else’s, but at the end of the day, there’s one thing that silences these toxic doubts, and it’s the fact that I know I’m exactly where I need to be.

I’ve spent countless hours praying that God would take full control over the direction of my life. I’ve thought long and hard about the decisions I’ve made. And if God tells me to jump, eyes closed, because He says that it’s in my best interest, that’s enough. I trust Him with my life, and I trust that He will take every dream that’s planted in my heart and nurture it to be something I never imagined it could.

Until we get there, I may not be making the big bucks, but I am incredibly abundant in so many other areas of life. I have been shown what selfless love looks like, and have gotten to pour my heart into another individual for nearly eight years. I get to wake up daily, create my own schedule, and put everything I have into something that I enjoy. I have parents that support my dreams fully. And each and every day, I’m given a new opportunity to create something (whether it be a friendship, a project, or new life journey) from the nothing that existed before. I cannot begin to tell you how thankful I am for that.

So if you’re out there, and you feel a bit lost too, that’s okay. Take comfort in the fact that you’re exactly where you need to be. God has a plan for your life, and He wants to see you succeed.

If you’re one of those people that doubts my life and the direction I’m headed, that’s okay too. I’ve come to realize that nothing I do is correlated to your thoughts and opinions of me. I’m going to continue to push forward. I’m going to continue to make my way. And I don’t know if I’ll ever have a concrete answer of what it is that I “do.” Because my dreams are worth so much more than one title.

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  • I couldn’t agree with you more, Tiana. I often find myself in the realms of wondering *what am I doing?* But, the more I put my interest in trusting what God is doing in my life, rather than what I am doing with my life all of my self doubt seems to diminish. I have so much respect for women who do their damn thang. (Excuse my language, but I feel it’s pretty befitting)

    • Hannah, thank you so much for taking the time to write your comment. It truly means the world to me to know that there are other women out there who are feeling the same way and putting their trust in the Lord. He truly is the greatest author of all time and He is writing our stories! I take so much comfort in that. Thanks for stopping by and for sharing your heart. xx

  • Ah, Tiana! I always love coming to your blog because we seem to be in the exact same headspace. I’m the same 23 year old who hasn’t, yet desperately wants to quit her job to follow her dreams. I’m constantly asking God to reveal what his plan for me is. And honestly, I mostly feel lost. My friends feel the same way. At the end of the day, I do know that He has a plan and everything will work out. Like you said, our confusion doesn’t make life any less meaningful. If anything it drives us chase after our meaning & purpose.

    Keep dreaming & keep believing.

    • Ciara – thank you so much for stopping by and for your encouraging words. You have no idea how much comfort I find in knowing that there are others out there on a similar journey to mine. You could not be more right, too! God has our best interests at heart. He is for us and not against us. And I find so much joy in that! I have no doubt that you will live a glorious life and that God is working in favor of your dreams. XOXO

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